So far, so fair

First and final summer program audition today, the rescheduled NYSSSA audition. Overall, I think it went ... well, I have no idea. Nearly every negative was countered by a positive or a more-positive way of looking at it. I botched the sightreading at one point, but stayed in time and jumped right back in without messing up the rest of it. Some notes failed to speak (something that only seems to happen at audition situations; rather frustrating) but there were other sections where everything sounded great. 

All I can say, I haven't the faintest idea how I did in the eyes of the judge, and I doubt I'll find out until I'm notified of whether I got in or not.

Terrifying, I tell you.

I did manage to slip in, when he asked what ensembles I have played in and programs I did, that I played in All-State on English this past December. Hopefully, even though he never heard the horn, he'll take that into consideration and maybe use it to give me a little bit of a boost. I also mentioned that I like playing English horn more than oboe. Looking back, I probably should've kept my mouth shut about that. Just one of the several times I want to smack myself, but instead settle for saying "I just need to shut up."

Quintet rehearsal later today. Ordinarily, this would be a concert. But, of course, quality and reliable attendance shot out the window as the date grew nearer. Our clarinetist had a matinee for a show he was playing in (Les Miserables at a local theatre) two (three?) weeks ago. Our horn was in Pennsylvania for Horn Day, or something along those lines, and I was supposed to have my NYSSSA audition then. I can blame myself somewhat; I was told if I didn't go there would be no rehearsal, so I decided to stay home, hermit that I am. I don't know what my exact reasoning was; I think I just decided I had planned on staying home that afternoon. I'm a stickler for keeping plans and getting in a mood when something comes up last-minute. But anyway, as I found out from the flute the following Monday at orchestra during break, she and the bassoonist both showed up and there was a duet quintet rehearsal. 

Feelin' like a slacker? You can bet your life on it.